Brandon

going digital

Mon, 19 Jun 2000 00:18:42 GMT

im still not sure if im comfortable with the idea of keeping
a digital journal. its much more natural for me to take a seat
outside in the grass and write in a notebook.

the thoughts flow out..

using this, everything seems blocked up.. i have to force
it all out.. it just isnt working..

stress

Fri, 16 Jun 2000 20:49:39 GMT

only person in office today and there is a SHITLOAD
OF FUCKING WORK TO GET DONE.

i resent the fact that i am the only person here.

back to work..

fvwm2

Fri, 16 Jun 2000 02:08:31 GMT

btw, god bless fvwm2.

broken

Fri, 16 Jun 2000 01:45:43 GMT

nothing.. no one.. is perfect.
in some way, each of us is broken.

most people can be fixed.

some of us, however,
are damaged beyond repair.

lost

Thu, 15 Jun 2000 20:44:05 GMT

i dunno what i think im doing with this.
i dunno what i think im doing with anything anymore..
i just feel pretty lost..

i guess this is the part where i use someone else's words to compensate
for my own inability to say something about myself:

"under a hat rim"

while the hum and the hurry
of passing footfalls
beat in my ear like the restless surf
of a wind-blown sea,
a soul came to me
out of the look on a face.

eyes like a lake
where a storm-wind roams
caught me from under
the rim of a hat.
i thought of a midsea wreck
and bruised fingers clinging
to a broken state-room door.

--carl sandburg