Brandon

going digital

2000-06-19T00:18:42Z

im still not sure if im comfortable with the idea of keeping
a digital journal. its much more natural for me to take a seat
outside in the grass and write in a notebook.

the thoughts flow out..

using this, everything seems blocked up.. i have to force
it all out.. it just isnt working..

stress

2000-06-16T20:49:39Z

only person in office today and there is a SHITLOAD
OF FUCKING WORK TO GET DONE.

i resent the fact that i am the only person here.

back to work..

fvwm2

2000-06-16T02:08:31Z

btw, god bless fvwm2.

broken

2000-06-16T01:45:43Z

nothing.. no one.. is perfect.
in some way, each of us is broken.

most people can be fixed.

some of us, however,
are damaged beyond repair.

lost

2000-06-15T20:44:05Z

i dunno what i think im doing with this.
i dunno what i think im doing with anything anymore..
i just feel pretty lost..

i guess this is the part where i use someone else's words to compensate
for my own inability to say something about myself:

"under a hat rim"

while the hum and the hurry
of passing footfalls
beat in my ear like the restless surf
of a wind-blown sea,
a soul came to me
out of the look on a face.

eyes like a lake
where a storm-wind roams
caught me from under
the rim of a hat.
i thought of a midsea wreck
and bruised fingers clinging
to a broken state-room door.

--carl sandburg